My condolences, and I feel your pain bud.
After watching my father suffer for two years, he finally lost his battle with cancer in September of '97 at the age of 57.
As morbid as it may sound, it was actually a relief when he passed away because he was no longer suffering.
There's a lot of things we never
made the time to do together, riding together on m/c's being one of them.
I had a very close friend who was a mentor and like a big bro to me die from drowning in '87.
His death brought more grief than my fathers since it was so sudden.
He'd seen the tail end of the V.N. war, been through all 4 branches of the service (some more than once), and honestly had no fear of just about anything.
He had a saying...
There's only two things I'm afraid of; wimun and the po-lice.
Yet while swimming in a small lake, he (very unlike him to do) panicked when he got severe stomach cramps and drowned.
There's not a day goes by that I don't think about and miss them both, but it has become less painful.
What gets me by is remembering all of the great times I shared with them both, and praying that I will be remembered as fondly when my time comes.
So
make the time to spend with those who are close to you, and treat each day as if it truly matters...because it does.